My visual disability has been a blessing for most of my life, although I did not always see it that way. For many years, I viewed it as a curse because of the daily struggles it brought. I live with several conditions that make it extremely difficult to focus. The most debilitating is that I see double in each eye, which leaves my eyes in constant conflict with one another. It is exhausting, and there are times when I have to close my eyes to cope.
Over the years, I underwent countless procedures in the hope of relieving my symptoms, but none of them helped. Eventually, my doctor delivered the heartbreaking news that nothing more could be done. He gently said, “Everyone has their cross to bear, Garo.”
I left the doctor’s office devastated and broke down in tears in public. I had always felt different from my friends because of my abilities, but now I was confronted with the reality of being physically different as well. Living with a visual disability means there are many practical things I cannot do as easily as others. Fortunately, my wife has been an unwavering source of support. Her patience, love, and willingness to help have made an immeasurable difference in my life. Coming to terms with my disability took time. I was supported by loved ones, both in this life and from the other side, yet I carried the pain in my heart for many years. I struggled with the feeling that my situation was unfair. Everything began to change, however, when I started my service as a healer.
As I worked with others, I began to realise that my physical limitations may have heightened my inner awareness. Although my physical vision is impaired, I discovered that I am far more sensitive and mentally visual than I might otherwise have been. What I once considered a weakness gradually revealed itself to be one of my greatest strengths. After years of serving others, I can honestly say that I would not have it any other way. I would rather live with my visual disability and possess the level of spiritual awareness I have been blessed with than have perfect eyesight without the gifts that have grown from my experience.
I have learned to accept myself and to love myself for who I am. I have let go of my resentment over the person I once wished I could be and embraced the person I was meant to become. Today, I no longer see my disability as a curse but as a blessing. It has allowed me to help others in ways I never imagined possible, and for that, I am profoundly grateful.
