I recall many changes within myself when I began the process of becoming a healer and an instrument for the other side. Many of these changes were physical, but they were also emotional and mental. I expected them because my spiritual therapist friend, Paula, had warned me. She sensed what was coming before I did. I remained unaware until the changes began, and when they did, they felt overwhelming and, at times, quite stressful.
The first thing I noticed was a sudden surge of energy that would wake me at odd hours. I would find myself in the front room watching television, trying to pass the time so I could feel tired enough to return to sleep. However, once this surge occurred, I could not fall back asleep. The next day, I would still feel unusually energised, and the only way to ground myself was to go for runs or brisk walks in the park. At other times, the opposite would happen. Instead of a surge of energy, I would feel suddenly drained and struggle to get out of bed. I had never experienced these symptoms before opening myself to my work for Spirit. Even so, I saw a doctor and underwent various tests, all of which confirmed that I was in good health.
Then my palate changed almost overnight. I could no longer eat certain foods I had always enjoyed, and I began craving things I had never wanted before. Along with this came a growing difficulty in focusing, as though I had become misaligned with the world around me. I struggled to keep my thoughts in order. I also developed a heightened sensitivity to noise and light, along with a deep inner sensitivity accompanied by swirling emotions I had never felt before.
At some point, I felt compelled to pray. I prayed every day, asking for the experience to stop, but it persisted for some time before finally subsiding. When it ended, I felt that something within me had changed. I could not fully describe it, but I could feel it. I also sensed that I had grown in some inner way. I went to the forest, where I feel closest to Spirit, and there I experienced a vision of remarkable clarity. I was told I had undergone a transformation and that the process was complete. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace, along with humility and a profound calm. I knew then that I was ready for the next level in my service at the church, a new beginning and a new challenge, far greater than what I expected, but I had my faith in God.
